buginarug: an androgynous blond young person leaning against a mirror and looking at the reflection (Default)
cuz it's essential one insider can write on lj/dw & another can hold a conversation with somebody irl.

curses!

Mar. 21st, 2012 01:30 pm
buginarug: an androgynous blond young person leaning against a mirror and looking at the reflection (Default)
i'm writing this partly cuz ^merrick wants it recorded but doesn't have anyplace to put it, but i'm gonna put my take on it too so that it's right for MY journal.

i think i've talked about our school arrangements before but i'll sum them up here. last term we took business computer applications & interpersonal communication. we got into the habit of going together, took turns somewhat, but the turn-taking was....softer, like usually all 3 of us were there, which — now — we're realizing was prolly a good thing. anyways, we planned to do roughly the same thing this term, with programming logic & fundamentals of algebra.

so yesterday ^merrick goes into programming logic alone. (we're getting MORE dysfunctional when it comes to switching, you'd think it'd be the other way around! we can't force anybody to the front without major dissociation.) the prof says it's the class where we're working on project 1. ^merrick sits down and opens the un-modified code and the hierarchy chart......and gets nothing.

turn-taking went so well that programming logic knowledge — the practical stuff, not from reading the chapters or listening to lectures — is confined to the insider who was closest to the front when the students were taught flowcharting and how to decipher/modify code. so ^merrick sits there in class and tries to call ^kv to the front, but of course trying to get him there means dissociation.

these days any effort to go against 'natural' switching just results in zoning out/depersonalization/derealization type stuff.....and natural switching is totally dysfunctional. broken. it doesn't bring the RIGHT insider for the job to the front anymore. it's like we're losing control of system workings.

this brings to mind having the wrong insider at the front for the last math test too. that better not happen again tomorrow!

we thought turn-taking in classes was gonna be good for us, but it backfired. now what?? (advice is welcome, if you've got some.)
buginarug: an androgynous blond young person leaning against a mirror and looking at the reflection (Default)
we're gonna do the fanfic together for nano. me & ^helen are doing development with tarot cards, which is lots of fun. our cards are really pretty. the book we use is 'tarot for writers'. ^helen is into the characters but i'm thinking more about plot! .....which comes next as soon as she does this final card for the characters.

we've been working on improving our communication to help with this writing stuff. it used to be really hard to communicate even if we were co-ing at the time, but we keep practicing now. surprisingly it's making us LESS blendy instead of more. we chat at night now just about every night. i've started inviting ^helen into my suite and we sit in the jacuzzi and talk till the body gets too tired.

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