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i wanna rename my journal bug in a rug. cuz at our best in here we're all snug as a bug in a rug! *grin*
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IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
so, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Rhythmbox, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie

the ridiculous soundtrack of my life! )

yunno, 2 of those were my songs in the first place! *scowl* i DON'T like country music and like half of this was country music.
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i wish SOMEBODY inside LIKED raisins. we've got this peanut/chocolate chip/sunflower seed/raisin mix that's SO GOOD except we don't like raisins, so we've gotta pick them out. most of the time at least ONE of us likes something. haha, if somebody other than ^merrick ate dinner (dinner time is family time so it's ^merrick's time!) we'd totally SHOCK mom by eating all this other stuff. *grin*
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i think one of the only times we wish we had our own separate bodies is when we get into arguments about our hopes & dreams & goals for the future.

also! also!

May. 9th, 2012 09:50 pm
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also the insider formerly known as 'webber' is now called ^wyatt again. he explained this better in his own journal but basically he's drawing the line between him & the fictional character he created to represent himself. i like the name 'wyatt' better anyways. if you've got access to [personal profile] backflash, he put up a list of insiders that he likes better than mine. *eyeroll*
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we had our appointment with the new therapist today! she's ok. she wanted our therapy goal to make ^merrick more present (which is ok) and more in charge (not ok), but i think ^merrick convinced her that we wanted to share and work together better. ^merrick made the point that the more she tries to be 'in charge', the more the rest of us try to take that control away. anyways, she seems nice enough. we got another appointment next friday afternoon.
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ha, i FINALLY finished rewriting the insiders post! have a look?
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we're welcoming two new insiders to the group. we're gonna write up a little about them to put in my list. if you wanna know RIGHT NOW, they're already in the image on my profile.

we did do xmas today and it was awesome. *grin* i WILL write more about it some other time.
buginarug: an androgynous blond young person leaning against a mirror and looking at the reflection (Default)
just realized why we unconsciously struggle to keep a consistent face. when we sorta came out as multiple at body-age 16, our therapist at the time saw a switch and said: that's not real, you're just pretending, quit faking and admit it's all you.

we TRUSTED her. so we doubted our inner reality. but we never wanted anyone to say that to us again, so we made a point of looking the same as each other. always. and we STILL carry that feeling with us. we don't wanna be called fake again. it's become an unconscious unavoidable need, it's a part of who we ARE as a system.

i think this should be one of our goals. be who we are on the outside as well as on the inside.
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i got recruited to make a dendritic diagram of us. we go thru so much morphing & blending & changing that body-mom said we should make a dendritic diagram — and cuz i'm the diagram person, that's my job! i wish i had some software to help tho.

biking

Sep. 19th, 2011 04:45 pm
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us frontrunners were fighting so much about who got to post about the bike ride on saturday that NONE of us got to post it. & now i dunno what to say about it. hm. we & body-mom rode 8 miles on a trail and it was really fun. haven't ridden bikes in like forever!
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take a look, right?? i put some stock pics of us in the profile too.

it is SO SO SOOOOO hot today. i like heat more than anybody else here, so 90F isn't too bad. i do like my fan tho. i'd be sitting by it if i was upstairs, but i don't wanna drag it down here.
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i found a website called lino & made a canvas about the system.

take a peek at all about us, right? :D
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JJ / jeanniNe
manic-volcanic teenage genderbender. bipolar 1 (hypo)manic/mixed. outgoing, ESxP/7, people lover! this is MY journal so i don't really need to introduce myself more than i already did in my profile. i'm co-host of the system and one of the primary 3 frontrunners.

merrick
early 20s, asexual bigender. bipolar 1 mixed/depressed, ddnos/did. total introvert INFP/4w5. formerly known as ^helen who's formerly known as ^laur. obsessed with writing and languages. on course in college for a computer support tech 2yr degree, in which the main frontrunners will participate. co-host/one of the primary 3 frontrunners.

kendrick victor / KV
adult male, very type 8, hard to get along with but prolly good for the group. committed to actually doing something. math/science guy, powerful, forceful. likes coffee, green tea, and things that occupy his brain. frequently engages in schadenfreude. formerly a fiction-oriented split from 'star trek: voyager' but decided to forsake that fictional source and reclaim his original place in the system. self-appointed commander of the system. ha!

isah
perpetually 17, intersex, free magic creature with the other form human with chimerism and chimera otherkin. former protector. 9w8 closest. strong with a sense of humor, but troubles with anger and disloyalty. has existed as long as ^JJ. in the process of redefining herself after a long dormancy in which our whole situation changed.

wyatt
male with a feminine side, late 20s to 30yo, enneagram 6/ISxJ, quiet, not sure about trusting people with anything more detailed....yeayea

toby
7y/o boy, quiet, likes crafts (crayons, collage, clay, etc.) and plants/gardening

the plant
yea, it's a shapeshifting semi-sentient plant. age & gender uncertain. protector. how better to protect yourself than turning into a tree??

pretty little blue-eyed beast / pretty little beast with blue eyes
child human (4 to 5yrs old) with bright blue eyes. acts like an animal, outside either deaf or severe auditory processing problems, throws tantrums, bites the body's wrists and forearms at night leaving bruises, very likely autistic. likes weather & dinosaurs
buginarug: an androgynous blond young person leaning against a mirror and looking at the reflection (Default)
i'm getting a real chance to be ME! alot of the time i've gotta hide myself, my ME from everybody around me, but i'm not gonna do that all the time anymore. i get to make MY OWN life, get MY OWN time, maybe even my own clothes. wooop!!

gonna make some access-only entries about mental disorder sometime too. system status reports aren't my style but we've gotta get em done more regularly. now it's late and i'm gonna be so tired in the morning, but i just wanna stay up a little longer..... c'mon, please!
buginarug: an androgynous blond young person leaning against a mirror and looking at the reflection (Default)
i never thought i'd see the day when ^pretty little beast was accepted into the system again. i outed it cuz i was sick of being blamed for biting the body's wrists at night. but then, umm, yunno, maybe we'll actually be able to tame it....or something?? i hope we get it to stop sharpening its pretty little teeth on MY skin! anyways, we're all getting into having our own hobbies, so maybe ^PLB can find something to entertain itself -- or, hey, soothe itself somehow. anything for those teeth....!! -JJ

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